Maybe I don't want to be happy.
Maybe I'm just self sabotaging.
Maybe I'm not looking for anything at all.
Maybe I'm just having an episode at the moment.
Maybe my life is supposed to be, one big episode.
It seems like it, sometimes.
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother thinking so much.
Then I ponder about whether I want to be happy or not, to begin with. And it all repeats itself ...
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Everybody wants to be happy. Some of us have been so broken we couldn't be arsed to look for happiness..or should I say strive for happiness. Because one day, it dawns upon us that maybe being happy..this pursuit of happiness, if I may say so, is selfish, is self-absorbed and mayhbe we really don't deserve it after all. Or maybe the world -has- to end one day so let it go on how it's going and just stop looking and giving ourselves some brain-pain.
Ooh, you're talking about learned helplessness.
I wrote about that for a psychology paper. Scored a 95, the highest in the class =D
Notice the change of mood/tone to a sudden happiness, because I got my Vaio today =p
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