Burn out, not fade away.

Laying in bed, blowing smoke rings, I've realized what I want.

Who am I really mad at?

I know what I want.

I want to fly up a million feet in the sky, and self destruct in a bright white light.

So everyone can witness it, maybe talk about it for a few days, and then just forget about it.

And I won't have anything to worry about anymore, because that'll be the end of my existence.

But I'll be happy in knowing, that I burned out and didn't just fade away.

The Laser Generation

(5:16 PM) - [iris]: but i really hope i get into a small family
(5:17 PM) The Devil's Advo: I don't like extended family system
(5:17 PM) - [iris]: yeah me neither
i'm sick of family politics
(5:17 PM) The Devil's Advo: I don't get what people were thinking
having so many children
(5:17 PM) - [iris]: lol i know
its almost as if
they did it all for fun
(5:18 PM) - [iris]: ooh lets have so many kids
(5:18 PM) The Devil's Advo: lol
(5:18 PM) The Devil's Advo: they obviously weren't thinking much
if anything at all
(5:18 PM) - [iris]: hmm
(5:19 PM) - [iris]: i wish we were the later generation
like the next one
(5:19 PM) The Devil's Advo: why?
(5:19 PM) - [iris]: coz our current generation is def very smart
(5:19 PM) - [iris]: it'd be a whole new diff thing
(5:20 PM) The Devil's Advo: our generation is smart?
srsly?
(5:20 PM) - [iris]: smarter?

(5:20 PM) The Devil's Advo: lol
are you sure?
(5:20 PM) - [iris]: than the previous, yeah
no?
(5:20 PM) The Devil's Advo: I don't think so
we just know more
doesn't mean it's any smarter
(5:20 PM) - [iris]: yeah we know more, so we do whats better?
(5:20 PM) The Devil's Advo: lol
no we don't
we're still the same humans
(5:21 PM) - [iris]: no see i'm talking about just a few aspects
like take the kids thing
or take
(5:21 PM) The Devil's Advo: well
first of all
(5:21 PM) - [iris]: first cousin marriages
(5:21 PM) The Devil's Advo: we can't have as many kids
because it's a lot harder to feed all of them
(5:22 PM) The Devil's Advo: and besides, there are still people
(5:22 PM) - [iris]: it was harder then too
(5:22 PM) The Devil's Advo: that mave a million kids
and even long ago
there were people that only had
two or three kids
(5:22 PM) The Devil's Advo: that hasn't really changed
(5:23 PM) - [iris]: no just think..how many of the young people today wouldnt think before having too many children?
its not about feeding them
(5:23 PM) - [iris]: its the way we think
(5:23 PM) The Devil's Advo: it has changed
but who is to say whether it's for the better
or if it's any smarter?
(5:23 PM) - [iris]: science?
(5:23 PM) The Devil's Advo: people are still stupid
science, how?
and if science isn't man made
(5:24 PM) - [iris]: well it proves everything doesnt it
the only solid proof
lol
(5:24 PM) The Devil's Advo: like what for instance?
(5:24 PM) - [iris]: people are stupid
but they are smarter
like for everyhting!
(5:24 PM) The Devil's Advo: haven't you noticed how
we still have more theories
than actual facts?
I mean sure
we're progressing
but at the wrong direction
we're only developing more and more things
to enclose our minds further
(5:25 PM) The Devil's Advo: the cognitive process as a whole, of mankind is only becoming slower and dull-er
(5:25 PM) - [iris]: how can you say that?
(5:25 PM) The Devil's Advo: how can I say that?
well, considering how
we've completely lost aim of what's important
and only focus on developing materialistically
(5:25 PM) - [iris]: isnt it better, the more we know about stuff
(5:26 PM) The Devil's Advo: what exactly do we know?
(5:26 PM) - [iris]: like
for eg
how our body works
(5:26 PM) The Devil's Advo: lol
(5:26 PM) - [iris]: thats science
and you believe in it
people didnt know
(5:26 PM) The Devil's Advo: we figured that out
a long time ago
(5:26 PM) - [iris]: what we know now
(5:26 PM) The Devil's Advo: all emphasis now
is on other things
(5:26 PM) - [iris]: like
better ways
(5:27 PM) The Devil's Advo: lol
better ways for what?
for living better?
(5:27 PM) - [iris]: lol
(5:27 PM) The Devil's Advo: and who set the standards to what living better is
or a good life is?
if you look at the mass population
general population
the majority of people
everyone is so tied up
with
(5:27 PM) The Devil's Advo: their starbuck's coffees
mocha's and latte's
and iphones
and
(5:28 PM) The Devil's Advo: tiny puppies in Dolcie and Gabanna purses
(5:28 PM) - [iris]: lol
(5:28 PM) The Devil's Advo: how are we growing any smarter?
we have completely lost focus
(5:28 PM) The Devil's Advo: if anything, right
people were much smarter back then
back in the days where Prophets were popping up every now and then
people were actually questioning things back then
wondering why we're here
(5:29 PM) The Devil's Advo: people that came up with religion
those, were the smart people
not our generation
mankind has somehow managed to completely
deviate
and just shrink our brain capacities
and our cognitive abilities
(5:29 PM) The Devil's Advo: next to none
if anything, we have evolved backwards
(5:29 PM) - [iris]: lol
(5:30 PM) - [iris]: you're just talking about a few aspects
(5:30 PM) The Devil's Advo: a few aspects?
I'm talking about the bigger picture here
(5:30 PM) The Devil's Advo: you're talking about tiny things like the human body
and us
(5:30 PM) - [iris]: lol that was just an example
(5:30 PM) The Devil's Advo: but this isn't just it
(5:30 PM) - [iris]: but
(5:30 PM) The Devil's Advo: human science isn't just it
there's so much more
that we aren't even aware of
and we aren't questioning it
philosophy
is just a subject taught as an elective in college, now
(5:31 PM) The Devil's Advo: Buddhaism is just a hip way of talking about people wearing orange robes and sporting bald heads
you know what I'm saying?
(5:31 PM) The Devil's Advo: The Secret
is just a coffee table book
you pick it up, skim through it
tell your girlfriends about it
they all go out and get it
and suddenly everyone is smarter
(5:31 PM) The Devil's Advo: we've all
0o0o0o, unraveled the secrets and mysteries of the unknown
by reading horse crap
that we should've individually
figured out ourselves
but we can't
(5:32 PM) The Devil's Advo: because then who is going to watch the episode of Oops I'm a celebrity, get me out of here?
(5:32 PM) - [iris]: loll
(5:32 PM) The Devil's Advo: And vote for that guy with the blonde hair on American Idol?
We will
so who needs to figure out why we're here
at least we have our iphones telling us the weather for the next 5 days.
(5:33 PM) - [iris]: its just because life's become so much more easier
(5:34 PM) The Devil's Advo: It hasn't become easier
we've made it easier for ourselves
just completely believing in religion
and that's it
our duty's done
we're praying five times a day
and attending church on sunday
end of story
(5:34 PM) The Devil's Advo: just because everyone else belives in it
and has, for so many years
it's gotta be right, right?
no doubt about it
a million people can't be wrong?
(5:35 PM) - [iris]: its not about a million people its about individual faith
i agree you cant do much about what faith youre born into
(5:35 PM) - [iris]: but reading/learning about other religions..its not hard to figure out whats right and wrong
(5:35 PM) The Devil's Advo: that's one of the problems
our cognitive crest
the limit
it ends right there
organized religion
people aren't even aware
(5:36 PM) The Devil's Advo: that there is so much more
We've somehow managed to
describe God
(5:36 PM) The Devil's Advo: in a few hundred pages, isn't it?
In our books and what not
and that's it
We have the definition down
memorized it
now it's just blind faith to take care off, and we're made
one way ticket to heaven
(5:37 PM) The Devil's Advo: what about things religion doesn't answer?
I don't get how so many people say
Religion answers all questions
it doesn't
really
(5:37 PM) The Devil's Advo: because we're not aware of most questions to begin with
(5:37 PM) - [iris]: like?
(5:37 PM) The Devil's Advo: and plus
what about the questions it raises in itself?
Like God for instance
if he's so merciful
why'd he completely banish Lucifer?
(5:38 PM) The Devil's Advo: Why did he create hell?
Hell, where we're going to rot and burn and be in immense agony
How could God have created hell?
If he did
then he's no Saint now is he?
(5:38 PM) The Devil's Advo: Kicked lucifer out
couldn't he have forgiven him?
(5:38 PM) - [iris]: lucifer never asked
(5:39 PM) The Devil's Advo: lol
(5:39 PM) - [iris]: for forgiveness
(5:39 PM) The Devil's Advo: and we know this for certain how?
blind faith?
how do we know for certain lucifer even existed?
(5:39 PM) - [iris]: how do you know lucifer exists then?
lol
(5:39 PM) The Devil's Advo: exactly
how do we know Eden ever existed?
History is like Religion, right
(5:39 PM) The Devil's Advo: and History is the version of past events that people have decided to agree upon
that's it
I'm not saying God doesn't exist
I'm not
(5:40 PM) - [iris]: there are witnesses
(5:40 PM) The Devil's Advo: that's just sheer ignorance
witnesses?
There were witnesses to OJ Simpson's trial too
he walked a free man
(5:40 PM) The Devil's Advo: but here's what I'm saying
I think mankind
trying to somehow define God
is plain stupid
but we did, we did it through religion
(5:41 PM) The Devil's Advo: The same thing Shakespeare did with 'Love'
define it so well, that everyone now has the same answer
if you ask them what Love is.
(5:41 PM) The Devil's Advo: but deep down inside everyone should realize
no one is certain what Love is
and you know what's even worse?
(5:42 PM) The Devil's Advo: if you take the way I think for Atheism
(5:42 PM) - [iris]: i know that you know god exists
(5:42 PM) The Devil's Advo: I don't know, God exists
I haven't ever met him
but
there are chances he does
and perhaps it's just me making things simpler for myself
saying there's a God, who created everything
(5:43 PM) The Devil's Advo: just so I'm not forever stuck with the riddle
of why we're here, and what we're supposed to be doing
(5:43 PM) The Devil's Advo: it all comes down to that
people making things easier for themselves
with things like Destiny, Fate, Luck, Love and Religion
(5:44 PM) - [iris]: but what if there really is a god
just like how they say it
and a hell
where you go if you dont follow the rules
are you willing to take the chance
(5:44 PM) The Devil's Advo: Of course I am
they also say He is the most merciful and most forgiving, right?
I have all right to take a chance
(5:44 PM) - [iris]: not for the non believers
he isnt
(5:44 PM) The Devil's Advo: And besides, how stupid is it if you don't question and try figuring out?
lol
(5:44 PM) - [iris]: that why he wasnt forgiving with lucifer
(5:45 PM) The Devil's Advo: that's just so convenient isn't it?
You either follow religion, or you don't. And if you don't you're going to hell.
Makes me think how
(5:45 PM) The Devil's Advo: whoever came up with religion
or the group of people
such smartasses
that there is simply no way out
no way of thinking 'outside the box'
no way of questioning
(5:45 PM) The Devil's Advo: you're stuck, that's it
(5:45 PM) - [iris]: you're not even sure
(5:45 PM) The Devil's Advo: right at birth, too
(5:45 PM) - [iris]: if 'people' came out with religion
(5:46 PM) The Devil's Advo: Why else do you think I question?
Are you sure they didn't?
(5:46 PM) - [iris]: i'm sure they just didnt think of it out of boredom
(5:46 PM) The Devil's Advo: of course not
they thought it up to make things easier for everyone
but everyone just took it the wrong way
(5:47 PM) - [iris]: i doubt they were that smart
if so many people
believed just one man
blindly
(5:47 PM) The Devil's Advo: lol
but we have, haven't we?
All of our Prophets?
One person.
(5:47 PM) - [iris]: that's what im saying
(5:47 PM) The Devil's Advo: through out history
(5:47 PM) - [iris]: there must have been
some reason
why ALL of them
beleived just one
(5:48 PM) The Devil's Advo: all the more convinent, don't you think?
(5:48 PM) - [iris]: but
they already had their god
to believe in
their deities
(5:48 PM) The Devil's Advo: yes, but don't you see how
say for example
the Gods they worshipped before Islam
Horus, Ra, right?
There must've been some other God, even before
Horus and Ra, right?
And when Horus came along
(5:49 PM) The Devil's Advo: the God that was already there, ended up being the Bad guy
to make way for Horus
and that's just what keeps on going through out history
until it ended up at
Hindu-ism, Christainity, and Islam
(5:49 PM) The Devil's Advo: I'm just saying
why is it wrong to question?
To try thinking for yourself?
(5:51 PM) - [iris]: its maybe coz there have been so many signs, and so many people sent to you, and now its upto you to believe
(5:52 PM) The Devil's Advo: no matter how many people have been sent and what not
at the end of the day
why does it all end at blind faith?
(5:52 PM) The Devil's Advo: there is no definite, tangible, visible, proof
Why?
Are we not deserving enough?
It makes no logical sense, yes
(5:52 PM) The Devil's Advo: but even if I do choose to believe in God
I'd want it to make sense
rather than just blind faith
(5:54 PM) - [iris]: yeah point but how will we ever know whats right?
theres no way
(6:13 PM) The Devil's Advo: you think it's impossible?
(6:13 PM) - [iris]: yeah
do you think
people havent tried?
(6:14 PM) The Devil's Advo: but isn't everything, until someone goes ahead and does it?
oh but that doesn't mean we just give up and stop does it?


Does it?

Diary of a Mad Man

Let me begin to describe loneliness. No. Let me attempt to.

So there's this void, right. Deep down inside your chest. But deep down inside you, metaphorically maybe. Maybe not, we have yet to completely understand the human body and everything tangible, intangible things should be left alone as of yet.

But it's there. Somewhere.

And if you close your eyes, and try to focus on where your mind is at, at the moment, all you see is a blank wall. And it's colorless. Black, if you think of it as a color, I know I don't.

Time Flies by Porcupine Tree is playing in the background as I type this.

And I'm making smoke rings.

And my digestive system is trying to tell me something, but everything in the upper portion - my head, is not picking up much. Maybe I'm hungry? Cigarettes really ruin your appetite, that's one reason never to start smoking.

So as I was saying ...

For me, it's always a headache. Not a metaphorical one, no, a genuine headache. My head hurts. And I don't know why. Plus, winter is right around the corner, and I don't much like fall for that matter. How it only gives way to even more cold, as melancholic and melodramatic as that sounds, take it in the literal sense for it to be less cheesy.

And now my roommate is forcing me to put my headphones on and listen to Bone Thugs N Harmony. I can't listen to the depressing side of Porcupine Tree.

I was wondering. How people are on the inside can be seen by the work they create. And it's sad, but all the people with creativity flowing within them only tend to get darker and gloomy. Poetic Justice, like I once said.

Not that art can't be happy and gay. It just sells much better when it's depressing. Doesn't it?

Happy things you can pass on to people, give them that feeling of joy for a while. But once you package depression, you know you have people hooked.

Then there's Bone Thugs n Harmony and Jay Z, and Tupac. And older cousin of mine, wise fellow - indeed. He told me one day, not to listen to guitar music, and how it rots the brain.

I was thinking about that on the bus today, and I decided to listen to Rap instead for a while. Rap is good music. But here's the thing. You can take whatever music you listen to, and completely turn it around - depending on how You are feeling.

And therefore, even Jay Z and Bone Thugs N Harmony are about blasting guns off, killing people, invoking the sense of control, power and wrath.

For me, at least.

Like Bizzy Bone's verse, my favorite of course, from "Thuggish Ruggish Bone";

Gotta give it on up to the glock glock
Pop pop, better drop when them buckshot, blow
The bone in me never no ho, so no creepin up outta the ziplock
So sin, sip gin, and lil' mo heart run up, nut up
And flipped in, than slipped in, the clip in, mistakin' the bloody victims
Ever if ya test nuts, to the chest and put em to rest
And, but I won't test bucks, put a hole up into me vest
And gotta get through my soul,
but they won't budge, mud, drug me victim
The blood in me runnin' my mental, the thug in me, stuck in me
Keepin' it simple, the bone in me runnin with thugs so
To the temple, buck when you duck to the thuggish ruggish T's
St. Claire P's to appeal to the G's
And a buck to all my enemies

Anyhow. I've deviated again.

I'm trying to fix up my screwed up finances, trying to figure out how much money I've been spending without thinking about it. I know, I know, Sam, long overdue. I know. It's just so fucked up.

You know, loneliness might be part of just expecting too much from people. Expecting them to always be there, at the end of the day, at the end of the line, at the end of it all. But no one ever really is.

Maybe it's just not possible.

Everyone has their own shit to attend to.

*2 hours later*

I just had a really long talk with this very intelligent man, who I have decided to call Lala Jii from today. About religion, humanity, mankind, God/Gods, The Intangible - the human soul, nirvana, consciousness ..

.. and then Rija came online. And now I'm talking to her.

Things are a bit different now. And I don't know what to write anymore.

But the loneliness will stay, and therefore I'll keep coming back to my precious, homely, blog. It's the only true friend I have. It's my head, my thoughts, my brain process, on paper.

And it's all mine.

Hate is Danish, and Danish is ...

Hate. Believe me.

I'm one of the worst people you could come across.

What I can do with words, can be used for much more than doing good. I could make people kill themselves, if I say the right things.

If I could, I'd sell off as many people's happiness, belongings, and everything else I could get my hands on, just to fulfill my materialistic needs. I really could.

I can hate a person with so much intensity, you'd think I'm the devil himself. Maybe I am.

I may seem like I'm capable of loving people, but really, I'm much better at hating them.

I hate human life. I hate humankind. I just do, we're all not worth planet earth being destroyed for, God probably made a mistake creating us. That's why we're all so fucking bent on destroying each other, and everything destroyable.

I might just be sexist, if that's what you call someone who doesn't see the point of Womankind. Womankind, is that even a real word? I've heard of mankind, but not so certain about the latter.

In fact, I'm a sole believer of the fact that Adam would be living it off if it weren't for Eve. Eve was probably the devil himself. That makes perfect sense to me.

Selfish doesn't even begin to describe me. It only comes close.

I have an inflated ego. I really do. I love myself, and that's about as much as I love. A lot, though.

I don't care about your feelings, your emotions. I really don't. So you might get hurt, but so what? People seldom don't. We're all getting hurt every now and then, so what's the big deal then? You can probably find someone else to hurt later, and take it out on them.

I have no heart. Not anymore at least. I have faint memories of having one, not too long ago.

No, I'm lying, I never had a heart.

That is Danish Arif in a nutshell. And I don't particularly like you either.

I hope for your sake you don't like me anymore.

Playing the Devil's Advocate..

The Devil's Advocate, me, decided to ask a few people a simple question. What is
the point? Here are some answers.

Rija is Rija, Reaper is Sam, and Iris is Nobia, just in case you wonder.

The Devil's Advocate says:
*seriously though
*it's like
*this fucking rat race
*why did society
*set these standards anyway?
*there's no time to
*grow
*there's such emphasis on
*making it out of your mother's womb
*being throw into school
*then college
*run after a degree
*then a job
*then be a money making machine for the rest of your life
*die not unveiling the greater mysteries of life
*what is the point?

- Reaper says:
*see there is a difference
*either you be part of the system
*which is what you just stated up there
*or you try to unveil the greater mysteries of life
*which is what we do

RIJA     says:
*just get the base
*get rid of it once n for all
*after that I say throw your heart out in the wild
*besides, im sure you unravelled a lot of mysteries in the process of
*going along with the system
*school, uni, degree
*there's all much more to it
*between the lines
*there's people
*and hours of conversation
*and stuff.
*<_<

- [iris] says:
*you cant rly say why standards are set, noone can help that..but why people try
so hard to fit in is coz they are cowards
*everythings been laid down
*they have an easy path
*why go wild?\

What is your answer? Leave one in the comments. Maybe if I get any, I'll put them up on the blog for the world to see.

Philosophy 101 ~ Prof. Danish A. Rauf

Hello, Class.

I had some very good points for the arguement against "God" and what not in my head, while on the bus home from college. But I just can't recall them anymore. Also about another similar topic, but that's gone too .. I think it was fate and destiny? Oh, here it comes.

I just realized something while saying it out loud in Philosophy class today.

Can it be, that people just choose to believe in Fate and Destiny because it makes everything so much easier for them?

For example, if something doesn't go your way, you can always shrug it off saying "it wasn't meant to be."

Oh, but if things do go your way, it's not fate or destiny, or even luck, it was all you and your hard work. You made it happen so it did, right? Of course.

But if you made it happen, and it did. Then why did you NOT make it happen when it didn't? Where does destiny fly in from out of nowhere.

And the same goes for God. Or at least the popular organized religion version of God. The general population version of God. The average Joe version of God. Almost everyone's version of God, in that context.

There when you want Him to be, not there when things don't work out. Simple.

There when you have shit on your platter and want it to just disappear, but not there when you get what you've always wanted. Typical Human.

Or maybe not, depends on person to person, right? Right.

Diversity, because we're all burning in the melting pot.

But I refuse to, sorry.

Blind faith just doesn't cut it, and proof doesn't ever show up on it's own. And that is the meaning of life for me. I might have just stumbled on to it by mistake, but here it is;

I refuse to close down the doors to where my mind can lead me, just because it's been 'brought down' in these books everyone talks about.

A 5 year old would not be as surprised about a man flying, as much as you would be. And the only reason why, is because we've given up on thinking that man can actually fly. Why?

The picture is so much bigger than you realize. So you wake up, and fall back asleep oblivious of it, but where is the big question mark? Why isn't there, a big question mark? There should be. It's been buried deep down inside of everyone's minds by This World that we've come to terms with.

Why?

Did you choose the religion you were handed at birth? Definitely not.

And it's wrong to judge the religion you're born into, is it not? So there is no choice, is there now. And even if there is choice, it's just on the surface. Deep down inside, you can't disobey God, right? And God gets handed to you right at birth.

Let's say there is a 'wrong' religion. Because there are so many, right, not all of them can be the correct ones? How is a person to be blamed if he gets born into the religion and has to follow it for the rest of his life? Because he can't in his right mind deny it, it's unethical and against the laws of religion!

And then again, it's not his fault, right? And if he doesn't 'know' the word of God, he's not getting punished for anything right?

If we wouldn't have been punished if the word of God wasn't preached to us ever, whose idea was it to spread it around and create sinners out of everyone?

What about people that are still in the dark about all these things out there in the world, let alone religion. Say, people still in tribes and what not, that can't even read. Are they not being punished because they don't realize what a Bible is? If not, than I think I would've chosen that path too.

Maybe I have. But it's different, because I'd rather look for myself than just listen and nod in agreement with everyone else. And why can I be blamed? I'm only human, and curiosity was programmed into me. Not my fault, blame it on fate or destiny.

And why not? Is it wrong to try figuring things out? Questioning things? It's not, if God really is merciful and forgiving. And if fate and destiny exists, I'll figure it all out before I meet my end. The good ol' happy ending to any story.

And if I don't, then that would be just sad. But not my fault, again, because destiny wasn't written that way. Why wasn't it? Who do I blame then?

You know what the most pointless thing in life is? People killing each other over religion. Goes to show how stupid mankind really is. As if the Delusion wasn't enough, there are lives being lost to it.

Amazing really. Brings me to my next topic; Conflict amongst humans.

Have you ever noticed how people can talk about World Peace, as if it's something achievable? It's not. It is literally impossible to have World Peace.

Why is that? Because we're all human. And human don't really want peace. We don't. Believe me.

Say you're in a happy relationship with the lad/lass of your dreams. How long before you realize it's getting too dull and boring being all lovey dovey all the time? And meeting on the same page? How long before one of you decides you need to stir things up a little and argue over the stupidest of things?

That's human nature for you.

And without that arguement that you have after that period in time, your 'love' for each other only grows. And you know why?

Because we can't have peace, without war.

We can't have love, without conflict.

We can't have happiness, without sadness. It's just not possible.

And we love conflict. We love war. We love sadness. Us, humans. Think about it, we really do.

And you probably already knew it deep down inside, but couldn't point it out. Well, I've done it for you.

Don't panic, though. All of us are the same. We're all human.

And therefore, realize - that there is no World Peace. It's an illusion we've decided to create.

Just like the Illusion of time. Just like the myth of Happiness.

There can never be Happiness. The pursuit of happiness is just as pointless as looking for World Peace forever. It's not possible. Look instead, for Joy. For joy is a short outburst of what you end up naming 'happiness'.

And it doesn't last forever, but hey - neither does life.

And the illusion of time - that's something just as wonderful.

Do you realize time speeds by a lot faster? Just recently, too, it wasn't happening before, right?

And some people think it's a sign of the apocalypse and judgement day. Hilarious as that is. I know, I wouldn't be laughing if it actually turned out to be right, but here's a thought;

Just how our minds are still open as a child, we don't pay attention to time. We have nothingness and so much space to revolve around in our lives, we're not so captivated by the little details, we're always looking at the bigger picture. And it's ironic, but the bigger picture moves a lot slower. Ellaboration;

Look at the view of planet earth from a satellite somewhere in the sky. Slow moving, and almost dull. Now, after 5 minutes of doing that, realize how slow time just passed by.

And that is the mind of a child that's just only opening up to the universe.

Now, imagine the view of a busy street in New York city. Full of life, like some people like to call it. Full of idiots, like I see it.

Notice how everyone is so busy in their own Mochas' and Lattes' and typing away on to their laptops inside Starbucks as if technology ceases to work at their homes.

Give that not 5, but 10 minutes. And then realize how much faster time flew by this time.

And there you have it folks. It's always been here, in front of us, all that I've just stated.

But I come back to the point I made when I started out with this blog post.

People just choose to believe in Fate and Destiny because it makes everything so much easier for them.

See you in next class, and don't forget to hand in your homework.

Paint

Madeline, (a.k.a Maddi or Maddikins ^_^) wrote me a poem!

It's being called "Paint"

"Paint" by Maddi

Your world is creative

you let your imagination live

You paint your heart on paper

Let the world be your canvas

Remember these places

Love my many faces

Be creative, let your imagination live

Paint the words you pick

Out of thin air

Don't live life as a dare

Paint your heart on paper

Draw your mind into later

Finish painting the world your daring orange

And remember, nothing rhymes with orange

- Maddi.

Oh, and I love it.

The Chronicles of Danish

-And then he sighed-

Warm and Cold.

Updates have been made to my deviantArt gallery!

The new set of pictures have either a cold blue or a warm orange-red tint. I was going to originally see if anyone notices without me saying it out loud, but I doubt now that anyone would've.

If you prefer Facebook, these pictures can also be found in my Facebook Photo Album here.

Leave a comment wherever you can, plz

Thanks for coming. =]

Celebrating life.

I remember Eid as a child.

It meant the end of fasting, new clothes, lots of presents, and staying up till late at night, redecorating the house.

I'd wait so impatiently for it. Stay up all night with my parents, actually wait for Eid prayer.

Pray, meet up with my friends, fall asleep later, and wake up in the middle of the day. Then go out and 'celebrate'.

Then it all got ruined one eid.

And then I remember the year after that. Being cynically depressed, as high as a kite, and staying out all night, because I didn't want to go home. And then getting home half an hour before Eid prayer, and ending up praying intoxicated.

And then there's today.. where I just only realized a day earlier that it's actually Eid tomorrow.

To everyone that is looking forward to Eid, though; Eid Mubarak. =] Hope you have a good one.

Tankas, Designs, and Gender Roles.

I am home, finally, after a 6-7 hour Art class o_o

We had to draw a design, with the following criterias;

1. Use an equilateral triangle, a perfect square, and a perfect circle, inside a 3 x 3 box.

2. Must be assymetrcial.

3. The shapes must all touch, or cross over, the 3 x 3 border.

4. At least one of the shapes must overlap another.

5. Be sure to draw an 'assume' line for one of the shapes.

And that's what I did for around 6 hours. Seriously. And on top of that, I don't really have an art kit yet, because I'm not even sure if I'll be taking this class or not?

Because seriously. Undecided major. 6 hour art class. 3 other classes in a week. And the homework you usually get for an art studio class, usually takes up 6 hours to complete. It says so in the syllabus. And procrastinator that I am, that can only mean trouble.

I still have to get done with writing a Tanka (the most popular form of Japanese poetry - consisting of 31 syllables' strictly) for my Creative Writing class.

I wrote one in the last class, with my 'writing group', and we don't have a name for it yet. Jeez, that reminds me, I have to come up with one, and then print the poem out tomorrow morning. -sigh-

But the tanka we did write, is about .... the rain. Why? Because he told us to write about 'the current mood' and it was about to rain outside. So I suggested rain. And there we have it.

I'm not going to put that poem up, because I didn't write it all by myself, I was just a contributor. But the poem I'm going to write in a while, I'll probably put that up. Not for critique, but for opinion. My art professor, who likes being called just "Rebekah", (and likes spelling her name Rebekah, for that matter) told us how there is a difference.

In other news, my cousin just told me something interesting.

Apparently, there was a debate in her class or something, about gender roles and how thinking and opinions differ between men and women. And the group that had the best report and what not, got asked by the professor where they got their inspiration from. Note, that my cousin lives in karachi. Guess what my cousin's friend answered? Yes, my cousin's friend, not even my own cousin.

She said 'she got it from this blog on the internet'. Now guess whose blog I'm talking about.

Round of applause ladies and gents, for I am taking a cyber bow right now. And my inflated self esteem has sky rocketed, thank my cousin and the various other females reading my blog for that.

But here's the cons of being an author. You can either be a best selling author, or a really good author. You can either make loads of money, or go unnamed in an english class while the pupil talk about your work without even knowing who you are.

She did however, say my name out loud in class and what not, so that's got to be something at least.

Dear unknown female. If you are reading this right now, thanks for the kind words. Now, please comment on this post? And don't stop spreading the word. Mucho gracias, and respect, however you say that in spanish.

Is it ironic that the class that day was about how men and women think? I so am the next Deepak Chopra.

I remember when a similar thing happened in a class room in Riyadh.

Moving on, Season 6 of The Office is going to air in half an hour, and I still have to order a pizza. And then a can or red bull later, I have to get started on both the poem, and also a response to another poem I read in English 102.

-sigh- College can get hectic. And hectic is an understatement.

In Gloom.

It's 6.45 AM and I just woke up. I actually went to bed really early last night, and surprised myself.

It's really, really cold. So cold, that I don't even feel like climbing out from under the covers, even to shut the window in front of me. And the sun isn't even completely up yet. Or if it is, it's hiding behind clouds. And it might rain.

-sigh-

I really don't feel like going out today.

I couldn't drop my art class, and I'm not looking forward to being stuck under all the stress of an 8 hour class. I can only imagine the kind of homework I'm going to get, and will not be able to actually do. 6 hours of homework is expected, says the syllabus. Ok, yessir, Mr. syllabus.

I feel like I've made the same mistake I did last semester with that business class. Wonderful.

My blog theme actually represents the gloominess that is outside my window too, right now.

And I'm not looking forward to this, really.

Dychets.

I refuse to give up hope. I refuse to join everyone else, who have stopped looking, stopped searching, and just given in to believing - what they see is real, what they 'feel' is true. Is that all there is?

I refuse to be restricted by our lack of knowledge, I refuse to be restricted by mankind's ignorance.

I refuse to believe there are fairies under the prairie, without even taking a look. I'd rather self destruct, in an attempt to find out, than just be content with knowing how no one knows for sure either, and with blind faith.

I refuse to end my imagination to what we've come to standards with. This every day life, and things deemed possible and impossible by everyone else. I refuse to label anything impossible, and I refuse to believe things are possible just because they've been done before.

I refuse to take your word for it. I refuse to take anyone's word for it.

I refuse to be distracted and sidelined by the sheer stupidity of the general population.

I refuse to be a part of the mindless fiesco we've come to take as 'life', even if involuntarily.

I refuse to be just another number, another part of the statistics. I refuse to be so human, that I'm just another human.

I refuse to be one of many, I'd rather be one of one.

I refuse to care what you think, and I refuse to justify myself.

I'll leave that to my end, for my end will justify my means.

Or I'll leave it to realization, that comes ever so slow at times. But it does.

I refuse to regret anything.

I refuse to believe there are times when there is nothing that can be done.

I refuse to only flow with the current, and not change directions and break the mould.

I refuse to accept average.

I refuse to accept anything but greatness, and I refuse to stop until I get there.

I refuse to judge people. Because that's what everyone does, and I refuse to be just anyone.

I also refuse to judge people, because if a God exists, I wouldn't want to take that away from him.

I refuse to go on ..

Make Believe.

I know what it is. I get it.

I don't want to go on anymore. Not for anyone, not for myself.. for nothing.

I'd rather just self destruct. I don't want to think anymore, I really don't. I don't want to think about anything.

I just need to blow up. Take down everything around me with me probably. Create a large crater on the ground.

But just not be anymore.

I think, therefore I am.

I don't want to be. I don't like thinking anymore. I want to stop.

I don't care anymore. Haven't really cared about myself since a very long time now, but now I don't care about anyone or anything else at all.

I don't want anything in life. I don't want 'life.'

I'd rather not be here anymore, if it means finding out once and for all what we were supposed to be doing here to begin with. And see if there really is a God or not.

My crazy hair, that I never pay any attention to. My fingers that always have a cigarette in between them. My confused mind that's constantly finding something wrong with everything.

Nothing is ever satisfactory. Nothing at all.

People find peace in Religion somehow, and I don't get it.

" Isn't itenough to see that a garden is beautiful without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too? ..."

- Douglas Adams, The Hitchiker's Guide To The Galaxy.

But is the garden really beautiful? Why are we not in Eden? We didn't eat the forbidden fruit. We do now, but we can't help it, can we?

What about people that are still oblivious to religion and God. How is it their fault that they don't believe, if they don't even know? Are they getting a free pass to heaven, then?

If they are, why was I told about Religion to begin with?

What is better? Living happy in the life you are certain about, or thinking about being happy in a life no one is really certain of? And if you are, then I don't understand how you can just believe things without actually ...

Let's not get into this.

"Dunya ke is shor main, seekha hai mar ke hoti hai zindagi kya."

Dhalta din majboor hai, aur manzil bohot door hai.

I'm not a very nice person, stop thinking that I am. Stop making me feel guilty, for giving everyone the impression that I'm this perfect human being. I'm not. There's no such thing.

In fact - if God spoke to you, told you a sure fire way to get into heaven? He'd probably tell you to stay as far away from me as possible.

I know what it is, the secret to making it in this world. To all the riches. It's fooling the people you can fool, tricking the people you can trick, lying to the people you can lie to. And that is success. Being better.

People don't have good intentions, no one really does. Neither do they have bad intentions. All intentions are just to satisfy their own needs. Good or Bad can't define it.

There is no Good, there is no Evil. There's just us. Humans.

Good things don't just happen to people, people have to make good things happen. Bad things, however, just do. How is that fair?

Cynacism, and Agnosticism. That's where it really is. Sitting on the fence. I don't want to know what's going on either sides, I just can't be bothered anymore.

Why do people read love poems and then wait their whole lives waiting for 'the one'?

The 'one' doesn't exist. There are just people, here and there. There is no one perfect, and you're never going to find anyone perfect. There are people with things you like, and the same people also have things you hate it. Live with it.

So why do you insist on placing people on a high chair, and then get disappointed when they show you just how human they are?

There's no point. Why are we dying to live, when we're just living to die?

Everything in between? How is any of it worth it. Happiness is just a myth. No one can ever, really be happy. Just like world peace is. It's just not possible. Humans WANT to kill each other. We'll never get tired of it. We want conflict. Without conflict, there won't even be temporary peace. World peace, forever, is a myth. Happiness is a myth.

What's the point in feeling sorry for anyone? Either acknowledge that there is no God, or acknowledge that bad things only happen to people because of what they do themselves. So which one is it?

Love.

Valentine's day cards, are just that. They're not good love poems. Love poems aren't happy, love poems are supposed to be dark, and gritty. That's how it is, that's just what love is. You can't really give your 'lover' a love poem on valentine's day. Unless you want them wondering whether you really 'love' them or not. And that's where hallmark and valentine's day cards come in.

Selling people what they want to believe. And everyone just gulps it up. Humans.

"Balance will help you not to destroy yourself," my professor tells me.

Define Balance.

Don't Panic. And don't bother commenting.

I'm trying to put words to my thoughts, but it's not working. At all.

I woke up around, half an hour ago.

I'm hungry, but I'm not.

I'm weirdly depressed, but I'm not.

I'm annoyingly melancholic, but I'm not sure why.

And I don't know how to describe it, but I feel guilty...

I just read a post BoogieMonsterMan made on her blog about me, and I think that's why it is..

I'm at a loss of words. And it's rare.

Fuck it. I can't write ...

Video Responses.

It's a start. Pardon me if it's a bit shabby. It probably is. First attempt, I can't stretch that fact enough.

Was originally to be a video response to BoogieMonsterMan. For I don't even remember which video of hers on youtube, but she kept insisting, and so I came up with something.

Something, at least it is.

Enjoy. Critique, Comments, welcome.

Mind Music.

Dhalta din majboor hai, manzil zara door hai ..

The God Delusion.

When one person is delusional, it's called insanity. When a group of people are delusional, it's called Religion. There is no God, there is no Karma, there's just fucked up shit, and it happens to each and everyone of us. Test from God? Then why does he put Atheists through it too?

More on this later.

Bachana by Bilal Khan.

"LYve"

BACHANA from Bilal Khan on Vimeo.

And the rest will flow.

Have I been here before? It all seems so new somehow. Yet, it's somehow similar.

But so much more different.

-Sigh-

So, I'm loving all my new classes. Creative Writing and Philosophy, most of all. Not so much English 102 though, the professor seems like a ... well, you know.

According to him; "Every other English 102 class has options and choices you can make, but not mine. Mine has substance, not choices or options. You're going to have to do exactly what I tell you, and that's it. There will be substance, though."

Substance. Well said, good sir. You almost had me there, for a second. No choices? I thrive for choices. I make choices. I create, choices. I AM, choices.

No space to creatively move around? Not me. At all.

This is going to be a conflict of interest. In fact, I always sold my work to my english 101 professor this way. He'd ask me to talk about Mangoes, I'd end up describing every other fruit and adding 'and what I haven't talked about in this paper, is a mango.'

And it worked, it really did. He did end up calling me Sly and Guile. But in a good way, he said. In a good way. Right.

Creative Writing is going to be hilarious though. The professor asked us what we thought gave story tellers back in the days their creativity. Then he answered it himself, and said 'Drugs.'

"See, that was a joke, but no one's really laughing," he said.

That's my kind of professor, right there. A student asked if he's got any, and he didn't really answer. I wonder, though.

Philosophy seems like fun. The professor made sure we realize that, we're going to talk about controversial concepts a lot, like, 'Is there a God?'. Fun stuff, really.

On a seperate note, like where I'm going with the new banner design? I am.

-Sigh- my sugar muffin, how I miss you so, already. You can't be too good for me, it seems.

Run a Chpeck by me, though, and everything will be fine.

And everything will be fine.

And the rest will flow.

And nothing else compares.

And we float.

Don't Panic.

There comes a time in my life, ever so often, when I just want to disappear.

It's been delayed for quite a long time now, and I feel like this is it.

Thank you for witnessing the Danish show. I hope I've pleased and entertained all of you enough to last a while.

I need a break though, as sad as that is. Pity, really. You'll get along just fine without me though, I know that much too.

It's not that I need some personal time for myself, I really don't, because I don't see that happening anyhow. It won't ever work.

I just need some time off of my self-sabotaging, world-loathing, self indulging, ways.

And yes, I still feel sheer disappointment from everything that has happened to this very day.

But the world won't learn, no one ever changes, no one ever will. Neither will I.
And it's just ironic, that everyone I come across is just the same.

The system has either made us this way, or we all opt to be so. It's just sad.

I don't like pushing people away, it just happens. As cliche' as that is. If you don't believe me, pause for a while and think about it. Yes, I have. You have seen and/or witnessed it yourself.

But remember. If I don't come back, for some of you. If I like disappearing a little too much. If I decide to turn selfish.

Don't panic.

"...as hollow as a life."

A statue that everyone came to, at all the odd hours of their day.

They'd take out time from their busy lives, but they were sure to show up.

And they'd sit there, talking to the statue. And the statue would always have this really huge smile on his face. He couldn't help it. He was created this way.

And he'd listen, and listen, and listen. And the smile wouldn't fade.

Came rain, came storms. Came birds of all kinds. They all whispered.

They all whispered in his ears, their tales of the seven seas. And how they'd been hurt on their way. They all talked to him, and wouldn't stop. They realized they couldn't stop.

The statue was a friend who would listen. And only listen.

And that's what everyone needed.

But no one really thought ahead, they never really figured. What would they be if the statue wasn't there anymore?

But it never mattered. The statue wasn't going anywhere.

Till death do us part.

Danish this, Danish that.

"Please, Danish."

"I need you, Danish."

"Where have you been, Danish?"

Please, you.

What about what Danish needs?

Danish hasn't been here, but it's obvious, he's been someone else's shoulder to cry on.

Where the fuck you been?

Danish isn't playing no more.

"Love Letters"

mainu kisi de dil naal khedne da shok nahi
ek waari dil dekhe dekhiye, eh boht nahi

par zulfaan teri kaali
tere wich sohniye koii gal wei niraali
mainu raatan nu jagaan teri gallan
yaad dilaan teri gallan
yehi gallan main pehle moon soniya kisi hor de
jaal wich phassiya kisi aur de
yaadan jagaan teri gallan

hun tere kol o rabbawe main door
dooron tenu dekhda zaroor
jiwwey tere toh main darda
samjhe tu mainu maghroor
hun wich mera kii kasoor
mera dil nahiyo mannda

chadd de pyaar de sandese mainu bhej ne
hun tere jaal wich phass na nii main
mera naseeb hawwa wich urhna
tere dil te pinjre ch' bas na nii main

girl: *remiiind me*
koi yaad mainu aaya
woh bhi tere warge si jidde naal dil main lagaya
te dil de ke chein gawaya

gurh naal ishq mitha, oh ho
ni gurh naal ishq mitha, aye haye

aar ya paar
aaj di raat faisla main karna
tere piche sohniye main khuwaar par
aaj di raat sab kuch saaf saaf teinu dasna
jooth bolna nahi sajna
saaade do waddey wich koi ghalat faimi rahe na

haan main sharabi par tere piche chad da sharab
bhung, udha koi nahi ilaaj
haan mainu yaaran naal sarkan da phiran da shok
hmmm, udha bhi koi nahi ilaaj

tera rang tera roop
naale dil nu pilaan di gallan teri khoob
jaddon tere naal howa, main araam naal sowaan
par ek gal khaawe, main wekha tere wal par yaad mainu koi hor aawey

girl: *remiiind me*
yaad mainu koi hor aawe
woh bhi tere warge si jidde naal dil main lagaya
te dil de ke chein gawaya


girl: so what are you doing?
bohemia : shit nothin, just finishin up this third verse
girl : youre always in the studio
bohemia: yeah, whassup wid you tho?
girl: uhh, well i was hopin you'd come over later tonight, after the studio, whatever you knw
bohemia : aah, i'll probably be busy tonight though
girl: bahane, bahane .. you knw they're talkin about us?
bohemia : well, who?
girl : friends, family, everybody
bohemia: i don't care about that .. look, tomorrow ima sneak by 10, 1030
girl: *laughs* I'll be at the window


kive kara main pyar da ikrar
main aadmi awara tu soni mutiyaar
tu naal mere jaan nu tayar, tera piyo, police nu bulaan nu tayaar
hun eda de mauke mainnu lagde nahi change
par jitthey dil di gal, udey laye na koi mere naal pangeyy
main galach nii aana
hun das de sab nu tu naal mere jaaney ya phir
aaj de baad mainu karii na tu yaad naal yaad rakhi mere dukhii dil di faryaad
mere baad, mere warga na aayega, na aaya
tenu dil deke chein main gawaya

girl: *remiiind me*
koi yaad mainu aaya
woh bhi tere warge si jidde naal dil main lagaya
te dil de ke chein gawaya

- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*ye man
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) just sent you a nudge.
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*telll me a gud software to edit photos
*a lil basic one than photoshop
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) just sent you a nudge.
Danish says:
*how about
*gimp
*get it from download.com
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*gud?
Danish says:
*yeah
*ppl compare it to photoshop
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*alright
*nd u were lookin for me ?
Danish says:
*just wanted to say hi
*what's up?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*hello
*just had sehri
Danish says:
*nice
*what'd you have for sehri? =p
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*a read bean curry with paratha:P
Danish says:
*lol
*where'd you get that stuff from?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*made the curry at home, got the ready made (only to fry) paratha:P
Danish says:
*niiice
*those things save lives
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*they do
*even the ready made shaan pakora mix, for iftar:P
*lol
*i sound so damn chicky
Danish says:
*hahaha
*no way
*and what else do you use in your recipes? =p
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*well the fruit salad has nuthin to it :P nd there is nuthin else in iftar but Roooooooooh afzaaahhh:P
Danish says:
*lol
*You drink rooh afza over there?!
*Where did you even find it?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*u hav to go to the desi areas, grocerry stores there sell all kinds of shit, even ready made rolls nd sambosa and all kinds of crap
Danish says:
*no way
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*but they rip u off, a bottle of rooh afzah is like 3 pounds here.. thts about 20 riyals
Danish says:
*there are no desi places in philadelphia man
*all the desis in america
*are in chicago, texas, minnesota
*or new york
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*oh, u better shift to queens thn:P
Danish says:
*lol
*shit expensive there
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*so i heard
*hw r u holdn up, first couple of weeks r hard when u come back frm riyadh
Danish says:
*It's not that bad man
*I'm hungry tho
*and all shops are closed
*lol
*except for the 7/11 in front of my house
*but im too darn lazy to even walk there and get something =p
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*dang, ur worse thn me at times:P
Danish says:
*lol
*and that's really bad, right =p
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*nah, humans r born lazy, think of this, our moms have to ''push '' us out literally, we cant even come to this world by our selves...
*makes u think hw God realy wanted us :P
*LAZY
*:D
*makes me feel alrigh:P
Danish says:
*lol
*lol
*that is quite a theory man
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*yeh i am planning to stand up against tht jack ass knws as Darwin
*:P
Danish says:
*lol
*he was a jack ass, all right
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*tht is a geeky picture if i may ... with all due respect:P
*seriously
Danish says:
*lol
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*makes ur head look like a squashed pumpkin
Danish says:
*you're quite the compliment giver
*in fact, I'm flattered
*why, thank you, Saad >_>
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*lol
*ahh u r a were wolf (hw do u spell tht)
*wear wolf?
Danish says:
*lol
*were wolf
*but that's a fox, not a wolf =p
*and when I tried to find a picture of a fox
*I wrote fox, on image searches
*an all I got was pictures of Megan Fox
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*lol
Danish says:
*note, though, that I'm not complaining =p
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*foxy ;)
*so whos ginger ale?
Danish says:
*Canada Dry man
*lol
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*i see
Danish says:
*yeah >_>
*IT's good stuff
*we bought a whole pack with 12 cans
*it's still in the fridge
*oh, and you know
*Adeel is still in riyadh
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*yeh i heard iqama tension
Danish says:
*who told you iqama tension?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*some document tension otherwise
*i keep my sources unanimous.. (hw ever u spell tht word)
*:P
Danish says:
*lol
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*i need to learn to spell seriously
Danish says:
*anonymous
*lol
*hahaha
*unanimous was funny tho
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*ms word has destroyed me !
Danish says:
*use that all the time =p
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*hey if u r as bored as i am at times, i wud recommend this documentry :
*http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=1485155465058882626&ei=nhufStyuF5fW-Abtv4SQCw&q=space+&dur=3#
Danish says:
*what's it about?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*the lies an the truths, like UFO nd some USA govt shit ... nd no moon landing
*allot of stuff
*but its pretty gud
Danish says:
*oh, dude
*you know how they say
*the moon landing was fake right?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*yeh ofcourse
Danish says:
*like
*after that mission
*NASA gifted a lot of countries
*these 'moon' rocks
*right
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*read the link i put on fb?
Danish says:
*which they claimed are rly expensive and stuff?
*the geniuses put them in museums
*some country, dont know which
*just did research on the 'moon rock'
*and they just realized that they are fake >_>
*they're just made of plain wood
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*yeh armstrong admited it was all fake man
Danish says:
*rly??
*when?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*u didnt see my post on fb then
*lemme grab it for u
Danish says:
*arite o_o
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*http://gizmodo.com/5349736/moon-conspiracy-theorist-makes-neil-armstrong-realize-obvious-truth
*plus i knw a 100 reasons why man never cud hav gone to the moon
*the space suit has NO prtection to radiation.... buggest truth, thts why russia never sent a man to the moon, they knw it
Danish says:
*well, duh
*why didn't any other country follow america
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*the pictures show multiple sources oflight, while in truth there cud be only one, the sun
Danish says:
*america claims to be the only country, right?
*yeah
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*yeh
Danish says:
*and the flag is wavy
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*stupidness
Danish says:
*when there can't be any air
*on the frigging moon
*OUTER SPACE
*lol
*damn, man
*either the American's think everyone else is too stupid
*or they are too stupid themselves
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*true, reasons after reasons man, ieven posted a video on ur profile..
Danish says:
*I think it's a mixture of both
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*nd u r still in US of A
*:P
Danish says:
*lol
*you have to admit
*the rest of us ARE pretty stupid
*an American Degree can get you a job
*in a minute
*in other countries
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*with u on tthh
Danish says:
*specially where you and I are going
*the land of dates and camel milk =p
*I mean female camel milk o_o
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*lol
*u nver knw ;)
Danish says:
*lol
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*sometimes it is unusually thicker:P
Danish says:
*hahaha
*looks like you have tried =p
*damn man
*the joys of
*lighting a cigarette indoors
*without any tensions
*and just walking around with it
*making an ashtray with whatever you find
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*yeah :(
Danish says:
*what, you can't smoke there?
*Oh wait
*aren't you fasting?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*well i m fasting right nw, so i cant help but envy u for the moment
Danish says:
*lol
*shit man
*I totally forgot
*sorry =p
*think about other stuff
*like babes
*oh wait
*shit
*don't think about that either
*think about
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*:P
Danish says:
*computers!
*lol
*wait
*knowing you
*don't even think about computers
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*wat if tht gives me a boner:P
Danish says:
*God knows what turns you on
*hahahahaha
*exactly what I ws saying
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*hw bout sam's wet hairy ass:P
Danish says:
*lmao
*hahahaha
*that is a good thing you know
*I mean, not his ass
*but
*if you have a boner
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*lol
Danish says:
*but can't do anything about it
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*lol
Danish says:
*just think about sam
*and, that
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*fuk thts true
Danish says:
*piece of
*amazing science
*on God's part
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*like if someone comes nd u r ahem ahem, think of sam sam sam
*nd its gne
Danish says:
*hahahaha
*shit
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*wat a wonderful brain we both have
*we should publish this
*with a pic of it :P if u hav one:P
*nd we can have our names in history books
Danish says:
*lol
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*Dr Saad nd Dr Danish who found a way to kill a wood
*:P
Danish says:
*I could put this whole conversation
*on my blog
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*yeh nd if sam reads it, i am gonna say my laptop has been busted for over a week, i didnt say tht
*:P
Danish says:
*lol
*this is going to be on the blog too
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
**silence*...
Danish says:
*lmao
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*>.>
Danish says:
*besides man
*Sam is such a nice guy
*and such a nice friend
*he wouldn't say anything =D
*right?
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*oh yes i kwn in wat sense he is nice, r u touching urself ?:P
Danish says:
*(get the hint, ass)
*lmao
*no, dumbass
*I was adding nice things about him
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*oh rite
Danish says:
*so he doesn't mind the post
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*yes sam is a lovely guy
Danish says:
*lol
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*best friend of mine
*since GRADE 3 u knw
*I LOVE U SAM
Danish says:
*hahaha
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*:P
Danish says:
*Me too MAn
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*if he reads;)
Danish says:
*yeah
*lmao
*now brb
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*brb = i m not really goin newhere, but seriously, neither is this conversation :P
Danish says:
*lmao
*I'm going to get food
*yet I'm still here O_O
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*or to the washroom with sam pic;)
Danish says:
*It's cuz I was saying brb to all the chicks
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*ahem ok brb
*:P
Danish says:
*lol
*ass
*brb
- *help (%) (%) x t 0 2 (%) (%) says:
*oh i m fasting
*shit
*sorry
*so i m here
*:P
Danish says:
*hahaha