My Dreams of Anger

I had a very weird dream, in the sleep which I woke up from like 10 minutes ago.

In the dream, I was with my friends and we were at this place which was kind of like the edge of the world (with respect to the fact that we couldn't see anything beyond there. It was all dark) but we were still in Riyadh (somehow you always know in a dream, where you really are).

And out of nowhere, these tidal waves started to appear, and I just ran over them ... I couldn't find any better verbs to describe what actually happened, but just know that I evaded the tidal waves, like I surfed them.

And as time, the tidal waves kept getting bigger and bigger, and I kept on ''surfing" them, while all my friends kept trying to surf with me but ended up getting wet in the end.

Now, I woke up from my sleep and the dream hit me in under a minute, and I remembered every last detail. So, I was in a REM stage just before waking up, I presume.

I looked into this book I have called "The Dreams Dictionary" which is basically just that. A dictionary that describes what your dream might have meant, if you look up the meaning to the things you saw in your dream.

Here are some of the keywords I could remember and looked up:

Flood: See Deluge.
Deluge: Overwhelming business loss. Financial affairs are usually indicated by storms, rains, floods, etc.

Not satisfied, I dug deeper and looked up 'water'

Water: Water is essential in life and, therefore, inevitably has a certain importance in dreams.
Dreaming of Waves, and the ebb and flow of the tide, may represent the ebb and flow of human emotions, from negative to positive and back again.

Emotions? Anger, I'm thinking? Or Depression? After that, I decided to look up 'running' because I was literally running on top of the waves.

Running: May suggest a strong sensation of the life force within, and exuberance. Running away suggests avoidance, either of emotions, fears, or responsibilities, depending on the context of the dream.

So, Running away suggests avoidance of emotions. Depending on the context of the dream ... Water, represents the flow of human emotions. And if the water is in the form of a tidal wave, what could that mean? Anger?

I can see how that's working ... I have been really, angry lately ... and I've been, trying to keep in under the hood ... clearly, my anger wants out ...

Changing lanes ... can there seriously, be any good out of thinking so much?

I was observing human nature today right before my IELTS exam. The invigilator was giving out the candidates instructions and I should've been listening to him, but thanks to my very short attention span (if you lose my interest, I'm sorry, but you're boring and you can't have it back until you set yourself on fire or juggle knives) my mind wandered off. How could it not? So many people in one room, of varying mentalities and age, and I not try to look how they go on about lives? Not entirely possible.

So the first thing I noticed was, no one was looking around. I was the only one trying to study all those present, like they were hamsters or guinea pigs. No respect to my fellow human kind, of course, I'm just really good with metaphors.

The second thing I noticed was, as soon as the invigilator said "There will be no breaks and you can't step out in the duration of the test in any circumstance, I noticed the eyes of each candidate started shifting around, and most of them, if not all, become restless.

Aah, human nature. So, my theory; the restlessness came from realization of the fact that they're not in charge anymore. And that they can't even go to the bathrooms if they want ... Loss of authority over own life. Of course, that'll bring restlessness. Oh, and they probably all started realizing that they suddenly have the urge to go to the bathrooms.

Also, my insomnia won't go away ... and I've noticed I've been either really angry or really sad. Those are the only two emotions my life has been running on ... where am I going wrong? =(

As far as my exam is concerned, and how it went; it was an English exam. 'Nuff said ...