The Emo Post.

So I've been wondering for a little time now, what the fuck "Emo" is.

I wear black all the time. I listen to death metal, and heavy metal, and screaming and shouting. I write poetry too. I do not, however, cut myself or cry because of how no one understands me.

Yesterday, I came across this website called "Emo Corner - The Emo kid hideout"

Why is it called a hideout? Well, judging by the number of people that would love to give emo kids something to cry about, I do think they need to go into hiding.

The website, (which can be found at www.emo-corner.com) is apparently a cheap, crap-design website, most probably run by 14-15 year olds. And if they're not 14-15 they should really re-think designing websites.

So, the website has 'cool emo hairstyles' and 'dressing sense'. But I don't get it. It's just messed up hairstyles, with a lot of shitty piercing. And emo guys just wear female jeans. And then, of course, there are the color combinations. Black and pink. Black and red. Black and ... white. Why black? Apparently "Emo" is short for Emotional. So, duh. Black has always been associated with mourning, hasn't it? But in that context, shouldn't it be parents of emo kids that should be wearing black?

Anyhow, According to the website, Emo is:
http://www.emo-corner.com/what-is-emo/

No, I'm not going to write that crap here. Go read it on the bloody website.

Ok, taking a break. People, I am all about freedom of speech. I am all about, letting the world be and not giving a crap myself. But, come on now. How can you not poke fun at something so ridiculous?

Getting back on topic, here are a few pictures I found, that poke fun at Emos. There was a lot harsher material, and that would be piercing, not poking, and that is why I'm not putting it up.

How harsh? One picture said "Emo kid! Go kill yourself."
Here are my personal favorites though:

Do you know any emo kids? Please tell them to pay this blog a visit and look at these images. Maybe that'll cheer them up. If not, they can always cry and write crappy poetry, right?

What do I think emo is? A reason for guys to dress up as girls.

Emo Kids! Cheer The Fuck Up!!

95th Post

My Dreams of Anger

I had a very weird dream, in the sleep which I woke up from like 10 minutes ago.

In the dream, I was with my friends and we were at this place which was kind of like the edge of the world (with respect to the fact that we couldn't see anything beyond there. It was all dark) but we were still in Riyadh (somehow you always know in a dream, where you really are).

And out of nowhere, these tidal waves started to appear, and I just ran over them ... I couldn't find any better verbs to describe what actually happened, but just know that I evaded the tidal waves, like I surfed them.

And as time, the tidal waves kept getting bigger and bigger, and I kept on ''surfing" them, while all my friends kept trying to surf with me but ended up getting wet in the end.

Now, I woke up from my sleep and the dream hit me in under a minute, and I remembered every last detail. So, I was in a REM stage just before waking up, I presume.

I looked into this book I have called "The Dreams Dictionary" which is basically just that. A dictionary that describes what your dream might have meant, if you look up the meaning to the things you saw in your dream.

Here are some of the keywords I could remember and looked up:

Flood: See Deluge.
Deluge: Overwhelming business loss. Financial affairs are usually indicated by storms, rains, floods, etc.

Not satisfied, I dug deeper and looked up 'water'

Water: Water is essential in life and, therefore, inevitably has a certain importance in dreams.
Dreaming of Waves, and the ebb and flow of the tide, may represent the ebb and flow of human emotions, from negative to positive and back again.

Emotions? Anger, I'm thinking? Or Depression? After that, I decided to look up 'running' because I was literally running on top of the waves.

Running: May suggest a strong sensation of the life force within, and exuberance. Running away suggests avoidance, either of emotions, fears, or responsibilities, depending on the context of the dream.

So, Running away suggests avoidance of emotions. Depending on the context of the dream ... Water, represents the flow of human emotions. And if the water is in the form of a tidal wave, what could that mean? Anger?

I can see how that's working ... I have been really, angry lately ... and I've been, trying to keep in under the hood ... clearly, my anger wants out ...

Changing lanes ... can there seriously, be any good out of thinking so much?

I was observing human nature today right before my IELTS exam. The invigilator was giving out the candidates instructions and I should've been listening to him, but thanks to my very short attention span (if you lose my interest, I'm sorry, but you're boring and you can't have it back until you set yourself on fire or juggle knives) my mind wandered off. How could it not? So many people in one room, of varying mentalities and age, and I not try to look how they go on about lives? Not entirely possible.

So the first thing I noticed was, no one was looking around. I was the only one trying to study all those present, like they were hamsters or guinea pigs. No respect to my fellow human kind, of course, I'm just really good with metaphors.

The second thing I noticed was, as soon as the invigilator said "There will be no breaks and you can't step out in the duration of the test in any circumstance, I noticed the eyes of each candidate started shifting around, and most of them, if not all, become restless.

Aah, human nature. So, my theory; the restlessness came from realization of the fact that they're not in charge anymore. And that they can't even go to the bathrooms if they want ... Loss of authority over own life. Of course, that'll bring restlessness. Oh, and they probably all started realizing that they suddenly have the urge to go to the bathrooms.

Also, my insomnia won't go away ... and I've noticed I've been either really angry or really sad. Those are the only two emotions my life has been running on ... where am I going wrong? =(

As far as my exam is concerned, and how it went; it was an English exam. 'Nuff said ...